Seriously

It has been interesting. Three good weeks and all of a sudden, I am queen horrible.
Is it bad that we have dtd only 4 times the month of January? And only once in two weeks? Today I don't even feel nice towards him. I think the feeling is mutual.
He told me last week that I couldn't finish anything. I keep wondering if this is what it is all about? Is this a typical marriage? I thought there was suppose to be love, affection, mutual respect? Well, I can say that NONE of those are there....

Day 2 of 2012

So, he has barely spoken to me all day. Whatever. I feel empowered today! I did a workout and followed a plan. I am doing weight watchers. I am so over feeling like poop.
Dh did say he liked my shirt, but, it is his way of saying, "That's new, did you waste money on it?"
Here is the workout I did today, I actually did 35 mins of cardio rather than 20. And, i did 30 jumping jacks with an additional 15 crunches. I made the skinny pad Thai for dinner. It was ok, nothing too crazy.

Seriously?!

Apparently it's my fault that my parents got him a $50 card to Dick's for Christmas. My bil got a smoker, Colleen got Vera Bradley luggage, he thinks "I" got an iPad. It was to both of us...although she knows he has one for work already. So, he's pissed and it's my fault. Yay…

January 1st

Well, as with any new year comes resolutions right? Lol! I hope to get this lazy girl in shape and look great for my plan. I want to make me feel better. I want to get attention I deserve. I don't get much at home as it is. Might as well make it more about me today and from here on out!

Slow move...

We had a huge fight two weeks ago. I told dh for the 1000th time what I need. I told him that I felt that he must have really low self esteem to constantly bring someone down with words. I also told him that I was keeping count of compliments for 6 weeks, and it was none.
He is trying. This week I have gotten 3 compliments.
I watched Fireproof last night. He was in the room the whole movie on his iPad. There might be hope yet.

Not any better

There seems to be a direct correlation to my weight loss and how I get treated. When I wOrk out, he speaks to me normally, when I don't I get talked down too. I am still waiting on a compliment. There have been none. If anything, things are going south. I don't know if I can make it a year. I am so over it.

Crap

So, I've taken enough of his attitude. I went out of my way for him and all I get in return is jerkiness. I don't feel like it's deserving.
I premade the pancake mix this morning while he was out just to be nice, got the coffee ready, took care of the kids, set him up with a list of items to pick up at the store because he was going, let him use my itouch while he's in the bathroom, was ready and had the kids ready for leaving prior to the time he wanted me to have them ready, and drove because he asked me too.
He needed a suit, so we are on our way to jcp with our kids (ages 7 and 3). I asked him if he liked my new hair cut and he said it was too short, but nice. Then he asked if I used my gift certificate. Yes. Was it more? Yes. How much more?? $60. He went into this soft tirade about how he can't believe i did that, I better like it, we don't have the same thoughts on the future and that we won't be able to buy a house next year...as we are driving out to buy him his 3rd suit.
At jcp his attitude continued. Has anyone ever enjoyed taking two young, bored children shopping and have a good time...NO. That is why some genius created target and any other place with a cart...the have seat restraints. So, the kids were being kids, I was trying to chase them, keep them under control, and offer my opinions to help him. Which he didn't take, and was doing a great job of ignoring me and the kids. I did a big sigh and that set him off. I'm done, take the kids to the car, I wanna get outta here. I explain my breath was for the kids, but, damage done. I took the kids back to the car and waited. We were to head to kohl's next. When he got in the car, I started toward the direction of kohl's. He said, I don't want to got, just go home...with attitude. Ggggrreeat.
I had to run to the drug store to pick up facewash. I also wanted beer. He has already stated he didn't want to drink this weekend. Does that mean I can't? Apparently I can't. Because I bought the beer and got the horrible speech of how I shouldn't because he doesn't.
Oh, and the pants are the wrong size. Can I go out and exchange them?? Really?? Really...